05 Mar

My mind is just messing with me these days. It’s filled with random thoughts all day and the moment I sit down to write about them BAM! it goes blank!

I’ll give this a try anyway.

One of the many thoughts that have been bothering me a lot these days is about this ‘person’. Not just any person..a friend. Not just any friend..a bestest best friend from school days.

My highschool memories would be incomplete if I don’t mention her. We had the best time together..shared our secrets, giggled and discussed our crushes, had our long phone conversations, studied when we had to, got good grades, made it into university. Although we got into different universities, we had made the same career choice.

It’s been 5 years since that time. We are on the verge of being labeled graduates now.
We didn’t get to meet up during those five years because we were in different countries.

Last five years were really hard on me. I did learn a lot..about people..about myself, but it did more harm than good. Perhaps, ignorance is indeed bliss.

Now, I’m not the kind of person who goes around complaining about how Change has been bothering them..and wished everything would stay just the way it is. I’m more of a person who believes Change is inevitable and indeed…a must. But sometimes you just can’t help asking – But why?

I took it for granted that five years didn’t change her much either. It was only after I met her that I realized NOTHING ever stays the same.

For some reason I felt the whole ‘let’s meet part’ was just for the sake of formality. I felt like she wanted to tell me “ know how the world works – Diplomatically! Now, I know you had given me your number weeks before I came and had literally begged me to call you when I land here but don’t worry, I have a perfectly good set of excuses for why I didn’t call you. I know..I know we haven’t seen each other for five years and that we know each other’s best kept secret from school days…but now I just don’t want to hang out with you anymore..BUT I’ll pretend like I do. You can still come and tell me about your life and I’ll bother listening but ya I won’t bother sharing much with you because I have other friends now..”

As childish as it may seem…it’s very hurtful to see someone, who was an amazing part of your life at some point, change so much…like SO much!


Posted by on March 5, 2012 in Rant


4 responses to “Sheesh…

  1. Bikram

    March 5, 2012 at 4:51 pm

    hmmm school friendships rarely last that long, usually the friends you make in college stay for life. As you said priorities change, the way we look at things changes .. SO everyone from school changes. BUt the ones the best friends you have made in college or university will stay on and when you meet them after 5 years they wont have changed that much.

    That is my experience rememebr in school we are also growing up …

    so dont let this dampen your spirit πŸ™‚ cheer up and take care .. it happens with a lot of people ..

  2. Enigma

    March 6, 2012 at 5:39 pm

    It saddens me to read this. 😦 But I really hope that things get back to how they were before, at least a little better. You’ll have your part of happiness. πŸ™‚

    Thank you for visiting my blog. πŸ™‚

    P.S. – My best friend is from my school days too. πŸ™‚

  3. Ria

    March 8, 2012 at 3:55 pm

    Well, friendships don’t last long enough these days…And I am realised this the hard way. And things do change. Sorry if i sound rude but that’s how it is…but the good thing is that u never really stop making new friends. πŸ™‚

  4. Jen

    March 13, 2012 at 10:12 pm

    I totally agree with Ria!! People really are changing with times.I dont understand if it is the change 21st century thuds them and us with or what? But people are no more warm /nice/loving.There is more to a smile these days.But yes,that never stops us in the search for true long lasting friendship!! πŸ™‚


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